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well, here is something new. never before have i shared writing so openly with people. there you are, reading this here entry. i feel so naked. i'm far too old to start at the beginning, so i'll start from last week. i've meet a girl, a woman i should say. a beautiful, witty, absolutely fantastic woman. and she squeeks. there isn't a quality about her i don't admire. we've known each other for some time, without realizing it for most of it. casual conversations between friends, the startling realization that we both exsist, sparks of friendship, developing crushes. there was a step-by-step procedure, just ask her. here is the dilemma. i'm too nice. not quite trusted yet. this has been a "downfall" of mine for quite some time, and i hate it! why can't people just be naturally nice? but i'm not ignorant, i've come realize the flags of caution that go up when a person seems to genuinely care, and i despise the fact that i can't do anything about it. well, that's not the only thing. i mean, we all have our own demons, and the two of us have plenty to spare. done complaining. anyhow, she likes vonnegut and the phrase "grrrr" is in her vocabulary. how could i not like her?
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